Least resistance
Just another day in paradise. I am not sure how other people deal with stress and pain, but this house is sure interesting. I am just angry and crying. That is not too productive, but seems to the way I am dealing.
The most sick is out of the house driving around. Not sure what that is about, but It probably makes more sense than anger.
One is sleeping, because that and drinking are his only answers for anything. He will begin the drinking part when he wakes up.
The other is eating.
I guess this is a perfect picture of dysfunctional. Wow.
I am the “baby” of this family and everyone else is way over 50. Sometimes I can not believe the road that brought me here. I should have taken the road of least resistance. It would have at least been an easier walk!
So, if you are reading. Enjoy.
Tough days ahead
Today is a struggle. My brother is more than a friend and a brother. He has been my protector when I needed it most. I am not prepared to let him go in any sense of the word.
He seems so calm, but I know he is just trying to be strong for me. After telling me the news, he just hugged me and said “I didn’t mean to get you all upset.”
I really don’t think I am strong enough to do this.
Gratitude
Gratitude in the word of the day. I am writing some thank you cards that are long over due.
Simply saying thank you at every opportunity should make the day better. I am determined to earn a better life from myself and my family.
I also need to broaden my idea of family. I need to work out those little details. I will let you know how that goes.
Taming the tongue
If the writing is honest it cannot be separated from the man who wrote it. Tennessee Williams
Today, not the whole year, but today, I am going to try and say only kind things. For those who really know me, you know this is not an easy task. Sarcasm is my humor and how I protect myself. So today the guard is down.
I am going to put this in the joy category for my New Years Resolution because I think the people around me will feel more joy.
I’ll let you know how that pans out!
It’s a new one
Well, it is here, a whole New Year.
The New Year fairies did not come and clean the house, change my schedule so I didn’t have to work or do any of those spectacular things. I guess I can keep hoping for next year!
So we all know my resolutions for this year are gratitude, joy and simplicity.
Today I am going to focus a little on simplicity and see if I can not get more organized and get more things actually completed in a day. I seem to be a great starter and often times I just do not finish. Today I am going to finish at least one project or duty.
I am also going to make a realistic schedule to get some things accomplished in a timely manner.
There are only 24 hours in day and all you can control are the way you use them.
Out with the old
It is with some relief that I welcome in a New Year. This year has been one of the hardest. As I have watched the health of by brother and my husband continue to decline, and the things that used to be so easy are now what seem insurmountable tasks, I must have hope that next year will prove better.
I doubt the Alzheimer’s can improve, but my reactions to the disease may be better. There is always the chance that Mark’s two year Lupus flair will come to a halt. I would give my very life for that to happen.
I guess that I am just glad this year will be over.
I keep thinking I have come to terms with Mom’s death and then I struggle and want more than anything to just be with her.
I am ready for a new year and good changes. That is my wish.
I have been challenged by a friend to do a 365 Project. She has asked me to do something specific and I am a little nervous about it. She has asked me to do letters to God. Since I am not very religious and rarely pray, it seems an odd request. I have to decide today.
Last minute people
It is amazing how many people wait till the last minute to do everything. It seems like a very stressful approach to life.
Today I was in the market buying milk. I am not sure what happened to all the milk, but it was gone. There was a woman berating the meat department worker because all they had were little tiny hams. She kept saying “Don’t you know it is almost New Years and people want hams.?” She finally ended up calling him names and of course, being who I am, I had to step in!”
“Excuse me, you have had over 300 days to get ready. Please stop yelling at him because you waited till the last minute.” I wandered off. I think I just said what he wanted to say and could not.
Do you ever get involved?
Sounds
Sometimes I just have to laugh. A well meaning person informed me that this little blog experiment was a complete waste of time and space. This is not news. I don’t have a niche, I don’t have any to sell. All I have are thoughts, ideas and stories to tell. They probably don’t mean anything to anyone else. However, writing gives me perspective, clarity and challenges me to learn new things. For these reasons I write.
It would be nice to get feedback, interaction, and an exchange of ideas. But, even if no one ever reads it, there is a purpose for me to write.
Just yesterday I was making fun of my husband because he was talking to the television. I explained in great detail that no one could hear him. His response was priceless. “You write to yourself all the time, what’s the difference?” It is so true.
When I wrote about the stinky polar bears, it was close to my heart and I thought it quite funny. He explained it was boring, but it was not to me. I will have written memories to share with the child when he is older.
In my quest to have joy, gratitude and simplicity, I will write. Some one may or may not read it, but I will always have a record to share.
Anyone is welcome to join me on my journey.
It’s a Holiday! Celebrate
Good morning world! Welcome to Good Riddance Day. I hope you all join me in this great adventure. It is healthy. It is happy. It make sense. If you do it right it can even be fun!
So here is the purpose again, for those who missed Monday’s post. Today is the day we release, forgive, throw away, get rid of, eliminate, junk, shred, burn, our useless guilt, regrets, grudges, bad thoughts, and memories that are causing us much grief. It is sincerely letting go of things we can not change and preparing to move forward for the new year.
This year I am doing a combo celebration. I sent part of my list to Times Square to be shredded at the official location. I have a Helium balloon for part of the list. I am going to shred and burn some of my more angry regrets. It is going to be bigger and more important than Christmas or New Years for me this year. It is going to have a great impact on my life. I am really ready to make this happen.
I am interested in knowing if anyone is going to join me. Feel free to leave a comment or idea. Let’s do this.
